My church has come undone and I am essentially unemployed.
I feel I am in a lost and dark place. For me, at this time, journeying with the Spirit is not about an external destination or activity. It is about a waiting.
There is movement in this waiting, but the movement is not toward the light. It is in fact toward the darkness.
“Clouds and thick darkness surround him,” says the psalmist.
For me, in this season of my life, to journey with the Spirit is to walk toward the darkness; the mystery; the unknowing.
Like Peter on the mount of transfiguration, the cloud has overshadowed me and I am terrified.
But Jesus is in the cloud. And in it I hear God’s voice. It’s a whisper, but it is clear and it reminds me that only Jesus’ most intimate friends are invited to join him in the cloud.
So I wait and I listen.
If you find yourself in Spirit-led darkness, don’t try to get out of it. Trust it. Wait there. It is in the cloud where Jesus is revealed.
(Part 8 will follow in my next post.)